Fear

fear

I just love this quote.  I’m not sure how applicable it is to what it is I’m going to share, but nonetheless, I wanted it to be shared.

Day to day, I’m not a risk-taker.  You won’t find me sky diving or taking other unnecessary risks for the thrill of it.  I live pretty conservatively.  The things I fear aren’t things I fear will happen to me, they are fears that I’d like to believe I can control.  I choose every day not to throw myself out of an airplane because it would frighten me, so I just choose to avoid it.

I fear what others think of me based on the decisions I make.  But, that fear doesn’t stop me.  I make unpopular decisions on a regular basis.  I have the courage to do it, but that doesn’t mean that I don’t fear the thoughts of others.

I’m fearful that despite my best efforts, someone, somewhere will be left with the impression that I am not worthy, that I’m unintelligent, shallow, or mean.  I don’t believe I am any of those things, but the fact I cannot control the perception of others makes me uncomfortable.

A handy, dandy Google search says you can call it “Social Phobia.”  Ha.  Well, I don’t think I’m that extreme.  But, it was interesting to read about.  Maybe now I can to my list of fears:  “I’m afraid of developing Social Phobia.”    Or: “I have a phobia of developing Social Phobia.”  Or: “I have a phobia of developing a phobia that will lead to Social Phobia.”  Okay, I’m done now.

 

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What about you?  Do you have any distinct fears?  Phobias? Things that send your anxiety level through the roof?

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