I just love this quote. I’m not sure how applicable it is to what it is I’m going to share, but nonetheless, I wanted it to be shared.
Day to day, I’m not a risk-taker. You won’t find me sky diving or taking other unnecessary risks for the thrill of it. I live pretty conservatively. The things I fear aren’t things I fear will happen to me, they are fears that I’d like to believe I can control. I choose every day not to throw myself out of an airplane because it would frighten me, so I just choose to avoid it.
I fear what others think of me based on the decisions I make. But, that fear doesn’t stop me. I make unpopular decisions on a regular basis. I have the courage to do it, but that doesn’t mean that I don’t fear the thoughts of others.
I’m fearful that despite my best efforts, someone, somewhere will be left with the impression that I am not worthy, that I’m unintelligent, shallow, or mean. I don’t believe I am any of those things, but the fact I cannot control the perception of others makes me uncomfortable.
A handy, dandy Google search says you can call it “Social Phobia.” Ha. Well, I don’t think I’m that extreme. But, it was interesting to read about. Maybe now I can to my list of fears: “I’m afraid of developing Social Phobia.” Or: “I have a phobia of developing Social Phobia.” Or: “I have a phobia of developing a phobia that will lead to Social Phobia.” Okay, I’m done now.
What about you? Do you have any distinct fears? Phobias? Things that send your anxiety level through the roof?